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On the Threshold
by Maria
in 01 Jan 2008
 (...previous)  well...it is personal and it is not...I mean, it’s personal until I make it personal, until I’m in the physical body and have my personality...
Dhammiko -...and have your personality whilst understanding that you have it and it is processing mentally...
Maria -...exactly, now...I don’t know yet if this refers to a passage, I mean to a death...I still don’t know in fact if this refers to a passage, ergo to a death, it being possible that I might be close to the physical death, but, in that case, it’s different from that which I’ve already realised, since I have been through and go through many states, experiences of death or many experiences of death in a state of absolute union with God and great felicity in that passage, which plainly fulfilled and fulfils me with Love in a union with God and, therefore I was and I am in fact, Me, This! Great!
But now it’s not like that, it occurs in a different way, much more intelligent, very clear, rational and without the mystical aspect...do you understand?..at the same time it’s in another dimension of exceptional intelligence. When I reach That, I think that it will be a complete illumination, if that happens to be possible...but it’s different. It’s a little strange...it is strange but it’s a fabulous sensation, at the same time...
Dhammiko -...doesn’t it have to do with the total fusion in the cosmic consciousness?..
Maria -...that exists, Dhammiko, because I have that fusion already...
Dhammiko -...maybe what Maria is talking about is something even more transcendent...
Maria -...it’s more than that, because...I have that fusion; there is always a state of Love, immense, in a connection with God, it exists always with intelligence and Love...but now it is as if I would go to that Dimension, confronting my death, not for a mystical state of felicity “Oh, it’s so great to let me go”…, but for a real state...real, eeeehhh...rational, rational might not be the right term but, intelligent...so strange… intelligent, without the mystical part which gives support. If there is a mystical part (that is the support), if there is a state of union with God where the culmination of that union was achieved, this is extremely simple, but it’s not of that union that I’m speaking, since that union is the one where even someone can tell us that we are going to be crucified; I understand perfectly what the Crucifixion of the Christ was for example...He lived so happy in God that He didn’t mind...in actual fact there is a part of Him that finally accepts that death, though hard as it might have been in that moment, but, in the end, He went to death accepting, and why? Because we believe that He had that union with God. At a certain point of my life I felt that, I have already lived what was the felicity of Christ in death...thence, when someone hits that state of union with God, there is a mystical and beatific state in which one can say or we can comprehend that, even dying today or tomorrow, crucified, one way or another, whether it be dolorous, although in that transcendent ambient there is nothing dolorous...we accept that with the highest felicity because we are in a union with God and this felicity is what matters, ergo, this is absolutely acceptable, there is no fear because we are in that felicity. But this is different, this is – that felicity exists, it’s here within, it has always been – but the moment of that understanding, of that passage to the other Dimension is through an absolutely intelligent mode...intelligent naked and RAW, do you see what I mean?..there isn’t the beatific side here supporting the fear or the letting go of fear, I mean, it is the confrontation... (laugh)...I don’t know if you’re grasping this...it is as if a child had been given a sweet or a candy, and the child grabs the candy and leaves to delight in it.
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